I think we all have a unicorn we seek. Some idea, location, person, etc. that we want in our lives, but it’s like the illusive (or dare I say it… make believe) unicorn. My unicorn is… surprise, surprise… balance.
I’ve spent a great deal of time reflecting and I have decided I tend to be the all or nothing type of person. So striking a balance tends to be extremely difficult for me. But at the same time, I realize in order for me to be successful, I must find a way to balance all the personas I wear in my life. Office worker, student, writer, blogger, photographer, wife.. somewhere in those many hats there is away to maintain consistency in all my roles and the ability for them to coexist. I just haven’t found it yet.
I am off balance most of the time with each role fighting for the lead. Most recently it was the student role that took over my life, other times it has been wife, office worker, and writer. It was the priority and EVERYTHING else took a back seat. So, now that I am on a break I’m trying to get my home and work life back in order. Work is the easy part of that equation.. I work 37.5 hours a week and during that time I’ll get caught up. The hard part is getting my home back in order. I have several house projects (painting and planting flowers) that I have put off, not to mention just standard spring cleaning. So, now the catch up begins. I figure a full week of finishing out house projects and then I should be back on my way to figuring out a plan to balance my roles.
I haven’t felt this unbalanced for a long time. Long before I started a yoga practice or studying Buddhism. I felt like I shifted back to a prior life, before I started working on self-development. One thing I have learned in the past year, is while prioritizing projects is important, I can’t put all other tasks and projects on the back burner. I lose motivation and slide into a burnout much quicker, than when I balance my roles out and engage in them with moderation instead of the take all lose all attitude I had been approaching them.
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