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Finding time….

Time.  Such an elusive construct. Last week, I posted my weekly goals and I can honestly say the only thing I accomplished was my school work, and that was a struggle.  Let’s just say at 8:00 pm on Sunday night, four hours before my paper was due, I threw out all the research and started over.  After a panicked couple of hours, I submitted what I considered the worst paper in the universe and called the week finished.  Apparently, the paper wasn’t that bad as I only missed three points.

On fiction writing front, I ended up writing a single paragraph on Reverie.  I was having difficulty syncing my time and motivation to get work done.  I haven’t accomplished much this week as I was sick for the majority of it, so my goals are getting to feeling better and concentrating on my school work.  Next Monday, I’ll be back to posting my weekly goals, though they will be a bit less ambitious.

As for time, I need to realize I have less of it than I did six months ago.  While time management does play a minor role in my lack of writing time, the honest truth is learning takes up a large portion of my time now (though I am still wasting a lot of it).  Being sick the past two days has given me time to sit back, relax, and not focus on anything, and I’ve realized that I’m not really wasting the time I’m not spending writing, I’m doing things that are important to me at the time.

It’s all a matter of perspective, do I want to get this draft finished?  Well yes I do, but I don’t want to sacrifice my lifestyle and personality to get it done.  Sometimes vegging out on the couch watching TV or playing a video game is what I need to do.  I shouldn’t have to feel guilty for not writing.  I have fallen into the practice of listening to what works for others and comparing my progress to theirs instead of following what works for me.  While I realize if I don’t sit down to write, I won’t write anything, but the same is true if I force myself to write when I’m exhausted or wanting to do something else.  As I have stressed many times, I need to remember that writing is only a part of who I am and I can’t sacrifice the rest of me to build up the writing aspect.  I know that when I push myself too hard writing becomes a chore and I lose part of my voice, because my writing voice is me, it’s my personality and life experiences combined with my imagination.  So moving forward, I am going to allow myself not to write and I’m okay with that.  I refuse to feel guilty for living.

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Author:

I am a writer currently working on her first series featuring Malcolm Stone. I also dabble in photography cooking and enjoying life. Synopsis of Dissonance (Book I in the series): Malcolm is youngest son of Preston Stone, the largest liquor importer on the east coast since the prohibition. His family’s affluence has afforded him the opportunity to follow his passion of being a pianist. He married a successful local artist Anabelle Connolly. They appeared to have the perfect life, but it had turned sour. After Anabelle’s death, the truth of their marriage can no longer be hidden. Years of Malcolm’s carefully constructed lies start unraveling at his feet. Will he be able to pick up the pieces of his shattered life? Dissonance explores and exposes a violent relationship, infidelity, substance abuse, depression, and lies.

5 thoughts on “Finding time….

  1. Excellent post, Amanda, and a lot of the struggles are things I can relate to at the moment! I had realised this week how much I have fallen into the habit of comparing to others’ progress, and let ‘keeping up with the Joneses’ seep back into my life.

    There’s no point in progress, I think, if you can’t enjoy the process (well, most of the time).

    Glad you’re feeling better, and I look forward to Monday’s goals!

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  2. I struggle with finding the time and motivation to write. I struggled with wanting to write over the past few weeks. I felt like my stories were not going anywhere. I became stagnant and let it fester. I ranted about it in a post and it turned out that it was what I needed. I gained support and encouragement to keep writing. I may not write as often as I would like, but I don’t feel guilty.

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  3. Are you following my lead or am I following yours? Your sentiments about when to write and why to write are the same as mine. The question I ask myself now is: Does this have anything to do with the holidays getting close? Maybe. Maybe even probably.

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    1. I have been considering the same question. I have noticed I am getting increasingly grumpy at work, I think I’m starting to turn into a Grinch a little early this year! I am looking forward to have some time off work around Thanksgiving, even if the holiday is slightly stressful 🙂

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  4. Very thought provoking post, Amanda.
    I try not to fret about not writing when, for any reason, I’m not. After all, it is something I do for pleasure, and of my own choice. When I do fret is when I long to be writing and cannot, for any reason, for instance ill health. Then I ache with that longing.

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