There are several things I could blog about today. I could talk about the giving up yoga midway through the year, only to pick it back up in the past couple weeks. Or how the standard routine in the Staley house has been turned upside down. Or even all the new friends (virtual and in person) we have made this year. But instead, I think I’ll spend a little time on goals.
Like most people this is the time of year I start making or at least thinking about goals for 2015. Every year we make tons of little goals or a couple big ones for the new year, but typically within a few short months we forget about them or decide they are not important. For me the big goal for 2014 was finishing my book Dissonance and getting it out on the market by December. I originally wanted to finish writing that first draft by February…. well February came and went and the draft was no closer to being done than it was in January. I pushed it back a few months. I kept pushing my deadline back, until I decided to get rid of the self-imposed deadline all together. I finished that first draft in late August. I attempted to quickly edit and revise the draft, send it out to beta-readers still trying to have it ready to market it before the end of the year.
Towards the middle of October, I realized that goal was unrealistic. It was time to step back and think about why I was really trying to push myself for a 2014 publication date. Why was it so important to be done by the end of the year? It came down to pride, I wanted to have something to show for all the hard work I had put in. I had been waiting for the day I could say “I have a published book” for over five years. I quickly decided that was not a good enough reason. So I decided to slow down, after all this was going to be my debut book, it needs to be done right.
It was time for a new goal. I wanted to make sure the book was the best it could be. I would need a professional editor and cover artist. I decided to push back the publication date. The only thing riding on the 2014 release date was my ego, and I would rather have something done right than done fast. I am now hoping for a late winter or early spring release. In the interim, I am working towards making Dissonance the best book I can. But more importantly, I have learned to be easier on myself and not stretch myself too thin and stress over goals that only injure my ego if they aren’t completed on time.