Some days, I wish I had a freeze ray. I could stop time and get my goals accomplished. Lately, I have been frustrated and annoyed. Things are not going as I planned. I won’t bore you with details of my life, suffice to say aspects of my life are taking over my writing time and I’m not thrilled with it.
This summer started out with family outings and obligations to be everywhere at once it seems. Then it turned into preparing for his classes in the fall, which is where we still are focusing our time. Tomorrow is his orientation and open house to see the brand new state of the art Occupational Therapy teaching center. I’m excited for him. We are still up in the air about what August will bring, but hopefully we will get that worked out soon. I just have to remember our future is more important than spending countless hours writing, and besides this is only temporary. Once his classes start up these writing delays will be a thing of the past. We will have all the kinks of this change worked out.
I love that our future is looking bright, but at the same time I think about where my individual future is going and about all the dreams and goals I’ve made and I get frustrated. I am not where I wanted to be in my 30s. I try very hard to be content with my life as is, but I can’t help but think there is more. I should be accomplishing more. I have recently been putting thought into continuing my own education. I have been thinking about going back to school to gain a Master’s degree. I have thought about this for a number of years, but could never decide on what my passion was. I have never been one to label myself by my job/career, making it difficult for me to decide what I want to dedicate myself to.
I have come up with a number of things I might want to study, but they always fall flat and just don’t seem like a good fit. I give up on the idea after a few months and go back to the soul searching. This time feels different. I enjoy writing and enjoy building my author platform, even if I’ve been slacking the past few months. Right now, I’m thinking of pursuing an advanced degree in Public Relations/Journalism. I am starting to prepare myself to take the GRE, which seems daunting; I’ve been out of any formal education for over 10 years.
I guess I’m tired of waiting around to find my future, and it’s time to take opportunity by the horns. I am determined to start building a life I am proud of. I would love to make writing my career, but I realize the likelihood of making a full time career out of my writing is a long shot, so why not develop my skills to something similar that I can make a living from and enjoy it.
Alright, I’m done with my one man pity party. Back to writing!
What are you doing to make your dreams come true?