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Cleansing myself of negative karma

One of my goals for 2014 is to get back to my healthy lifestyle.  Before we moved in 2010 I was starting down a path of clean living, but somewhere a long the journey to 2014 I lost my way.  I started noticing mid-2013 that I had strayed away from the path I had set out on.  I started noticing drama finding its way into my life again.  At one point I painstakingly attempted to avoid drama at all cost.  Drama only causes suffering.  I stopped associating (or had limited interactions) with people who always see the negative or jump into arguments head first. I even  stopped watching most television that had more than two people arguing. I believe there is sort of a magnetism effect.  Once you start allowing drama to seep into your life, it seems to seek you out.  I also noticed my positive outlook on life started to falter around the same time.  I was constantly looking for a way out, seeing only the things I didn’t like about where I was and what I was doing.

In my quest for clean living I have noticed that the magnetism effect also works on the positive aspects as well as the negative.  If you start being appreciative of things and the people around you the happier you become and the happier you become the more you will notice the things / people that make you happy.  Knowing this makes my quest for cleaner living more attainable.

Though there will be a few bumps along the road.  Last time I started this quest, I had just moved apartments and changed jobs.  For me moving was always an excuse to start fresh and clean out all the excess crap that you accumulate over the course of living.  It was like cleansing your karma and starting over again, it’s a new beginning.  Starting a new job allowed me to sever those ties to individuals, whom I like to call psychic vampires.  Those people you interact with and they leave you feeling like they are taking your energy force or you feel as though you lost something just interacting with them.  We all know the types, they go by different names, but to me they feel like vampires, sucking the life energy out of me at every interaction.  This time however it will be a bit more challenging.  I will be staying in the same house and keeping the same job.

June 18, 2011 674The first step for me is recognizing these individuals in my personal life and at work.  I know who each of these individuals are and what role they play.  I know their strength levels, basically I know which of them is the gatekeeper keeping the door open for the rest of them. The larger problem becomes dealing with them.  I have started taking five to ten minutes at lunch time to practice a short meditation, re-gathering and centering my energy.  Since I can’t sever the ties as I normally would, I will instead learn to prepare and protect myself from each interaction.

Today I started phase two of my quest for clean living.  I started a gratitude practice.   I figure protecting my life force from energy drain and drama is only half the battle.  The other half is restoring my positive outlook on life.  I could wait to see how the meditation affects my outlook, but I would rather burn the candle from both ends.  Today’s exercise was find three things in your day that you find beautiful.  Enjoy them in the moment then write them down later in the evening.  Mine were as follows:

1.  This morning there was a red bellied woodpecker at my bird feeders.  He is easily twice the size of the other birds. His feathers on his head and belly are a brilliant shade of red-orange.  The sun practically sparkles off of them.  I enjoyed watching him eat the suet cake ever vigilantly watching to make sure no predators were approaching.

2.  This evening when we went to the grocery store, as we were walking in on the sidewalk.  I noticed the sparkles of a very light dusting of snow.  The sidewalk still retained it’s grey cement color, but when the street lamps shone down the sidewalk sparkled like it was covered in tiny flecks of diamonds.

3.  Today I cleaned our ferrets room from top to bottom, washing all of their bedding and blankets, mopping the floor and even washing the cage wire.  Once the laundry was done and the floors dry, I was putting the room back in order.  (They are spoiled little things)  Two of them came barreling into the room to see what was going on.  They were jumping and chuckling at the newness of the room.  I rearranged where the beds were and where tunnels and toys were kept.  It was a joy just to see their enthusiasm and joy at such a simple thing as cleaning up.

For my gratitude practice I am using a book called “Gratitude A Journal” published by Chronicle Books LLC, text written by Catherine Price.  It has the typical journal set up with quotes and exercises included on the pages. 

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I am a writer currently working on her first series featuring Malcolm Stone. I also dabble in photography cooking and enjoying life. Synopsis of Dissonance (Book I in the series): Malcolm is youngest son of Preston Stone, the largest liquor importer on the east coast since the prohibition. His family’s affluence has afforded him the opportunity to follow his passion of being a pianist. He married a successful local artist Anabelle Connolly. They appeared to have the perfect life, but it had turned sour. After Anabelle’s death, the truth of their marriage can no longer be hidden. Years of Malcolm’s carefully constructed lies start unraveling at his feet. Will he be able to pick up the pieces of his shattered life? Dissonance explores and exposes a violent relationship, infidelity, substance abuse, depression, and lies.

8 thoughts on “Cleansing myself of negative karma

  1. “At one point I painstakingly attempted to avoid drama at all cost.” YES! I have slipped into the same thing as you. I too had cut most of the drama or limited my interaction with it. Seems like I let that slip back in sometime in 2013 and I slipped back into negative thought and talk as well. I’m with you on this journey of finding my path again and getting back on track. Good luck. We are both strong enough to succeed. 🙂 Thank you for sharing this.

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      1. I’ve got two blogs. I see you followed the one that is mostly my short, hopefully inspirational, posts. My other is kind of more my personal journey/sharing one. it’s at http://tracyseekins.wordpress.com/ if you want to take a peek. I think you’ll like a couple of the recent ones I’ve posted. Quite on the same track as you are. ((hugs))

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  2. I felt happy and grateful just by reading your three thankful statements!

    Changing yourself without changing your environment is certainly harder, but I can say from personal experience that it also feels more permanent. I use visualisation to ‘protect’ myself from these toxic people – psychic vampires, as you call them :p

    Instead of fighting negative with negative, I focus on spending more time with the happy, positive, and supportive people in my life, and the negative people ‘organically’ filter out. Or they convert, which is even better 🙂

    From the sounds of it, you are well on the way to a happier, healthier lifestyle – go you 🙂

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    1. Thanks for the support Zee! Right now other than my husband the majority of my happy, positive friends live 1,000 of miles away, but I keep in contact with them via email and texts.

      I think the biggest obstacle for me right now was I moved back “home” where there were expectations and past behaviors were easier to fall back into. When I did my change before I was still living in Florida, they seemed pretty permanent at the time and I was going on three years strong with my change, but moving back here, I was too eager to make friends and wasn’t being very mindful of who I was interacting. The downfall of working with very few people, sometimes beggars can’t be choosy 😉

      But I am looking forward to the organic drop off and or conversions like I experienced a few years back.

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  3. I’ve been fortunate enough to have a mother who always seems to find the good things in life, and to not fume over the bad and, instead, work on finding solutions. Moreover, if she can’t find a solution right away, she puts the problem on the ‘back burner’ while she goes on with the present knowing that a solution will come to her. Although I don’t always think as she does, for the most part I do. As a result, I find something good in each day I live.

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    1. Glynis, that is awesome that you have had a great role model in your mother! My mother was always struggling with esteem issues herself, though luckily I got my disposition from my father who always seems happy. I too am always looking for something to be thankful or happy for.

      I always think something good comes from everything, even a bad experience as long as you learn something.

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